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Coming up,
Mattie Jackson Smith
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draws from her experience
after the death of her husband
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to walk with you
Through the Valley of Grief.
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>> Keeping my eyes open
and my heart open,
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and praying, Tammy,
God give me a little joy,
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a tiny joy today.
Let me see it.
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That accrues
and that adds up,
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and then you learn
to look for those things
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the moment after you fall
on the floor weeping,
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and both are true.
They just are.
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It is miraculous!
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♪
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TAMMY: Hello, everybody!
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Welcome to LIFE Today.
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I'm Tammy Trent
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and I'm so glad
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you're here with us today.
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I think you're going
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to be blessed
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and love today's show.
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Our guest is
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a best-selling author,
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speaker, and podcaster
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who has walked through
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some of life's darkest valleys
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and has come out
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on the other side
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with a message of hope
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and healing.
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Mattie Jackson Smith knows
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the depths of grief.
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We're going to talk to her
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about that and her journey
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today, along with
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her new 365-day devotional
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Through the Valley of Grief.
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Welcome Mattie.
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I'm so glad you're here!
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MATTIE: Tammy, I'm so glad
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to be here.
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I look up to you so much
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and obviously,
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I love being on the show.
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So I'm so glad to be back.
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TAMMY: You are so sweet.
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We met in January of 2018.
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So we met at a restaurant
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that you had at the time.
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You just happened to be there.
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I remember you walking out
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and we chatted.
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I can't remember if I told
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a little bit of my story.
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But I heard a little bit
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about your work
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with widows at the time.
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It was just such
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an amazing connection.
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Who would have known?
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Who would have known at
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that time in January of 2018
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that a short time later
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your life would be
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forever changed?
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So I'm going to start there.
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Like, let's go back.
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For people that don't know
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your story, let's go back
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to touch on that
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and how that has shaped --
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those experiences of your life
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have shaped who you are
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and what God is doing
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in your life today.
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MATTIE: Yeah, yeah!
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I got kind of chills
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when you were talking about
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us meeting then because
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that truly, in all ways,
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feels like a different
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lifetime to me.
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I had my restaurant
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in Nashville.
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I'd been in hospitality
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all in my 20s and I had
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just married the love of
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my life; this vibrant,
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wonderful, joyful man, Ben.
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We had married the previous
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Fall in Nashville
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at my parent's home.
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I was just living this life;
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kind of cruising
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my first entrepreneurial
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endeavor and newly wed.
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So I felt like this is it!
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Like this is the answer
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to all the prayers
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and God is good.
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It happened that in June
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of that year, I ended up
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closing the restaurant
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for personal
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and professional reasons.
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I've always had this tug
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in my heart to write.
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Throughout the course
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of having that restaurant,
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I also felt this pull
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to minister to women,
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especially young women
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that have worked for me
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and whatnot.
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And so I felt that call.
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I didn't know that God's call
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was higher, and to be honest,
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much harder than I would
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have ever anticipated.
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So I closed the restaurant
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in June of '18,
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and then that September
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I lost my husband, Ben,
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very suddenly in a tragic
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sort of boating incident
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in Florida.
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It led to his 12 days
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in the I.C.U.
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and multiple brain surgeries,
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and a medically
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induced coma; and just trauma
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truly from an accident
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that you never anticipate
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getting to that level.
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He passed away three weeks
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before our first wedding
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anniversary that year.
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That was six years ago now,
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which again feels
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like a lifetime.
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What I have walked through
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and where God has brought me,
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I feel like it is
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a message
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he is still teaching me.
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It is unbelievable.
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You know that kind of loss
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and how it reorients
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every aspect of your life.
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So these past years,
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I had the gift of seeing God
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use that desire in me
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to minister and to write.
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And also, to use
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the worst thing that's
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ever happened to me
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to bring hope to other people.
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What a gift to me to witness
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that over and over again.
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So I'm grateful to y'all
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to continue to help me
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share, honestly.
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TAMMY: So I want to ask you,
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when I heard about your story,
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and I've gone back
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and revisited it,
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especially as a widow myself,
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you held out in that
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hospital room for a miracle.
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You prayed and believed
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for a miracle.
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So what do we do
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when our miracle story
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doesn't happen?
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MATTIE: Yes, that is
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a thing that took years
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of fighting,
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I'll use that word
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because that's what it was,
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with God, about it.
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I write in the devotional,
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and I've spoken about it
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many times,
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we stood on that miracle.
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I, in my heart,
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knew this is --
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the stage is set for you, God.
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The table is set for you, God.
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Like we've paused
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and prayed over every nurse,
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every surgeon.
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We've been to
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the cold hospital floor.
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We've teed you up
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for the miracle.
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Like this is going
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to be for your glory.
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And when it is not,
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it caused me not to doubt
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in a way of walking away
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but to doubt in really
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like let's look under
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the microscope of these truths
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that I've always just
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taken at face value
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my whole life.
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I'll never forget
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sitting in my pastor's office
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at the time, and it was about
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a month after Ben passed,
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and asking him
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that question.
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Why do we pray for healing?
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Because I did and I will
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never forget, obviously.
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He referred me back to Jesus.
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He is our model for everything
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in the Garden of Gethsemane.
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He said, "You know that
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was Jesus's battle too.
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He said, 'I want a plan B.
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But if not, God,
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your will not mine.'"
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That doesn't make you feel
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better in that moment when
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your miracle answer is no,
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but I think it taught me
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something about prayer
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that changed my life
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in the way that
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I relate to God.
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I remember a friend
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later asking me, "Do you pray
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for healing when
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people ask you?"
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I said, "To be honest,
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for a while I didn't."
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Because I didn't know
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that it mattered.
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Was the outcome already set?
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And then I realized,
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that when we go to God
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knowing he can answer yes
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and knowing he can answer no,
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we are first of all
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being obedient to worship him
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when the outcome may
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or may not be what
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we want it to be.
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And B, he is drawing you
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closer to who he is
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and separating that
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from what he does.
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And that was a hard lesson
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for me.
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To be like if God doesn't
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do what you want,
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will you still love him
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for who he is to you?
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And that's a big call.
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That was a big call for me
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to write this book
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which is so just drenched
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in scripture and the gospel.
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I'll tell you, I just
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did the audiobook
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and I was going back through
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and I was like, girl,
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you were not light
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on the gospel.
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Like I'm glad.
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I was like we did not
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sugarcoat this.
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But my big lesson was
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when God's hand doesn't
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feel good in your life,
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where do you go to learn
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that his heart is still good?
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And it is in his word.
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So that's what sustained me
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and that's what brought me
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back to prayer is just
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as much about drawing
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near to God as it is about
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getting the outcome you want.
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Because sometimes you do,
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and sometimes you don't.
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That's tragic. It is!
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TAMMY: Totally.
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I think that's what
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I love, Mattie about
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your devotional too because
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it is drenched
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in the Word of God.
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So many times it is easy
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for us especially when
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we're going through something.
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I mean grief looks like
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a lot of things, whether
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it is loss that we've gone
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through, divorce,
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the death of a dream,
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a ministry that didn't
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take off,
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or a friendship that failed.
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I mean loss is loss and
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it feels deep in the heart,
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and lonely and painful.
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If we are constantly in
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a place where we are saying,
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well, I say this
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about the situation
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or I feel this about it.
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Well, what does God say?
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And if we don't know
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the word, then we don't know
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what God is saying
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to our loneliness,
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to the feeling of isolation,
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to the feeling of loss,
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to the feeling of
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I'm not worthy,
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I'm not good enough,
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I'm not smart enough,
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I'm without.
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And if we don't know
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the Word of God then we will
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stay in that rather than
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what does God say?
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I can't do this.
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Well, with all things
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it is possible.
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I've not given you
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a spirit of fear.
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There are so many promises
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from God.
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What I love about
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Through the Valley of Grief,
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there is so much.
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And it was good for me.
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Mattie, 23 years later
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in my own loss, there was
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so much in this book,
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probably every day
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there was something
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where I thought, wow!
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I needed this today.
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I thought I handled
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something right
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and I didn't and I needed
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this truth from God's word.
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But you know what?
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There are a lot of people
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that are probably watching
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today that feel like
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their whole future has been
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erased because of the path
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that's been chosen for them
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or that they're on,
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that they're taking.
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What would you say to somebody
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that feels like that?
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Because in the season
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they're in
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like their whole future
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is erased. It is done.
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This is all it will ever be.
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MATTIE: I would say
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first of all, I've written
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and spoken those exact words
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over and over that
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my future looked like
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it was erased.
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Because for all intents
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and purposes, a lot
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of it was, right?
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That I had dreamed
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and planned, so I get it.
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And that is a very hopeless
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and helpless feeling
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and it is very disorienting
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from every direction.
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So you're not alone in it.
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The next thing I would say
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is to be in God's Word.
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He says in Isaiah that
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he makes streams
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in the desert
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and he makes ways
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where there are no ways.
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That's what he does.
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He is a God who makes
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everything new.
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And you are the pinnacle
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of what he creates
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so he's creating something
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new and beautiful.
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I know it is horrible
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when you can't see it
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and I know that it is scary
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when you can't see it.
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I hope that you can see hope
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in my life when you can't
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see hope in yours because
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Tammy, that's what I had.
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We were talking backstage.
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I had widows who lost husbands
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in their 30s
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who were then in their 50s
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who walked with me.
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And I saw their life
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full of joy, remarried,
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with children, thriving,
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ministering.
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And when none of that
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seemed possible for me,
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I could see it in them
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and they could speak it to me.
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They would speak
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God's truth back to me.
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When you go back to his word
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you see him make new things
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out of broken things,
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and you see him restore.
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What you can't picture
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God has already written.
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I know that may sound trite
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but like dream big with him.
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Imagine the beauty.
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Imagine the restoration
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because he'll do it
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in his way.
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Stick around to see
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what it is because his way
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is awesome eventually.
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TAMMY: I love that you said
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his way.
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So we have to be careful,
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even for me, I remember
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a lot of people thought
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for me, the redemption story,
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the resolve would be that
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I would find love again.
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Then she'll be whole,
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then she'll be healed.
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But I think that looks like --
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look our stories
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are parallel but your story
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is different than mine
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right now.
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But I am healed, Mattie.
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You are healed, and that story
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looks a little bit different.
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So we have to be careful
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not to say, it needs
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to look exactly like this
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or then God's not in it.
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God is in the business
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of restoration, whatever
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that looks like for Mattie,
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whatever that looks like
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for Tammy, whatever
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that looks like for you.
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It might look different
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and you have to be willing
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to open up to surrender
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to God's way, and trust
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God's will for your life.
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So can pain and joy coexist?
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MATTIE: This is one of
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my favorite topics honestly,
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now, to speak about
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to people
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and conversations to have.
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Because for all intents
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and purposes, he wired me
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as a pretty joyful person.
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I'm grateful for that.
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I'm just a glass half full
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almost to a fault.
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So when I lost Ben,
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those were very foreign
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feelings to me.
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Like just feelings of despair,
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feelings of darkness.
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That was just not something
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I had ever traversed.
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And so for me, one of
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the biggest lessons was
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you don't have to
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come out of that
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to experience joy again.
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Because in this type of loss,
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you don't come out of it,
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you just keep moving forward
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and healing forward.
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But you don't have to be
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in your better place
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or your new normal
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to experience joy.
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I think that was a lesson
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the Lord taught me
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early in my grief.
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Not because of me but
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really because of Ben.
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I write about him often.
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Just like I said earlier,
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he was the most abundant man
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I have ever experienced.
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And so in a way, it was
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God saying carry on
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Ben's legacy.
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Don't miss these joys.
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Celebrate the things
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he would celebrate.
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In that way, he taught me
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how to do that.
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He taught me how
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to keep my eyes open
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for small goodnesses.
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And really, I think
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we overuse the word
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gratitude now.
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But can you really overuse
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the word gratitude?
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Like to pause
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and thank him.
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To pause and worship him
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when I didn't feel
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like worshipping.
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I think keeping my eyes
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open and my heart open,
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and literally praying,
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Tammy, like God give me
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a little joy, a tiny joy
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today, and let me see it.
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That accrues
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and that adds up,
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and then you learn to look
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for those things the moment
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after you fall
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on the floor weeping.
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And both are true.
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They just are.
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It is miraculous!
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TAMMY: So let's talk about
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grace now.
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And where God has brought you
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now to this day
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and the beautiful story
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that he's continued to write
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for your life.
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MATTIE: Yeah.
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So I appreciate what
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you said earlier about
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redemption and restoration
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not looking cookie cutter.
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You didn't use those words
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but it is not cookie cutter.
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There was a part of me
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that before I met my
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now husband Connor,
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and before we remarried
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last year, praise God,
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and before we had
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our baby boy three months ago,
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just unbelievable
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the direct answer
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to these prayers
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that I prayed tearfully
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for years and years and years.
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I just tell people,
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remember, the first redemption
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was me like you just said.
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There was a point where
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I could sit with myself
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and I could sit with the Lord
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and I could sit with
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my very best friends where
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I don't sugarcoat things
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and say, if this isn't it
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if God healing me
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and him giving me
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this beautiful love story
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that only lasted three years,
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one year in marriage,
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then that's enough.
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Then he is enough
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and I will live my life
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as best I can,
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and some days I do it great,
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and some days I don't,
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as if everything else
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is a cherry on top.
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I really feel like
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when you get to the depths
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through the valley
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with the Lord, he teaches you
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in a way that he doesn't
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teach you anywhere else,
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I am enough and
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everything else is a bonus.
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And like Connor
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and my baby boy
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are the biggest bonus
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I've ever experienced.
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And my joy for that
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is even deeper than
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it's ever been because
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of what I've gone through.
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But if God didn't take me to
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the God-you-and-me-are-enough
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place, I would be right back
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where I was which is
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just taking it for granted
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or thinking it is
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what is going to complete me.
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Or thinking being a wife
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again is my identity
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when it is just the cherry
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on top of the identity
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that God already gave me.
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And that is a life-changing
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lesson to learn at 28,
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30, 34 years old.
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Not to my credit.
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It's to God's credit.
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TAMMY: Amen for that.
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Let's talk about
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Through the Valley of Grief.
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What do you hope
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for this devotional
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and how did it even
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come about?
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MATTIE: Well, it came about
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because I wrote
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those entries to myself.
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When I was grieving
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in the first year,
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long story short,
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my mom's best friend gave me
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a similar book but
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it was just quotes.
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It was called
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Healing after Loss
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and it was specifically about
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when you've lost someone
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to death.
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It spoke so directly
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to my experience that
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I read it every day but
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it wasn't scripture-based.
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It wasn't a Christian book.
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I said every day
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I wish this was God's word.
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I wish these words
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shepherding me
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were God's Word.
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So I started writing
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the entries like they were
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written in that book but
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with scripture
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instead of just quotes.
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So I started doing that
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as my daily routine.
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And then I thought,
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my goodness like other people
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probably want this too.
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And this is just a resource
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that I wanted.
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My hope for it is that
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it is not only a soft place
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for people to land
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in the comfort of God's arms.
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I heard a quote one time,
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"When you hit rock bottom
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he's the softest place
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you can land."
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So I hope it is that
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from a spiritual perspective.
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And honestly,
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from a practical perspective,
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I hope it gives people
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action steps.
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There is a call to meditate
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or pray or do some sort
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of call to action
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at the end of every day
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to practice one of
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these four rhythms
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that I think ended up saving
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my life once I learned
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what they were
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and how to do them
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in a practical daily way.
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TAMMY: Mattie, this is
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a devotion that
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you and I both needed.
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We needed this.
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And I think we as widows
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early on in life,
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we searched for things
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-- I did.
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I'm sure you did too.
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That's why I'm so glad
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you took the time
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to write this devotional.
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Because again, I don't think
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it is just for someone
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who has lost.
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It can be grief
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on any level.
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It will minister to
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so many people who just need
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the Word of God,
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who need a little help,
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who need a tool,
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and every day --
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every day there is just
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a little nugget
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where you walk away.
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I did!
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Day 30: "Any time the Lord
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allows you to struggle
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is because he can already
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see the magnificent fruit
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on the other side.
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When you rejoice,
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pray and thank him
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even in your low valleys.
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That's when your heart
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is most open to receive
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his divine work
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of sanctifying your soul.
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His ultimate will is
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to lead each one of us
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to become more and more
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like Christ even in
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the struggle."
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Mattie, I cannot thank you
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enough for today,
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for you, for your life.
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It is not even that
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your prayer was to be known
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and seen, but to be known
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and seen by Jesus.
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He sees every piece of you,
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every part of your life
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and nothing is wasted.
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I love that about
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the connection we had
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just briefly in 2018.
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We get to be in this space
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together today to say,
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look!
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Look at what God has done
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in our lives.
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It is possible
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to breathe again.
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It is possible to live again.
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It is possible to be restored.
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It is possible to be healed.
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Our stories look entirely
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different than what we thought
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they would look like.
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But we are here today,
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strong women of God
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who are growing and breathing
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and moving because of what
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God has done in our lives.
00:19:06.211 --> 00:19:07.279 align:start line:85% position:10% size:28%
I love you.
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I appreciate you.
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And I'm so glad you're here.
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You know there are
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a lot of people in the world
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right now all around
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the world that are struggling,
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that are facing loss,
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that are facing grief.
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I've had the privilege
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and opportunity to travel
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the world with LIFE Outreach
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and I've seen a lot of it.
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It has taken me
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to my knees at times
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when I think what could
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I leave with them?
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What word could I leave
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with them?
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How can I help?
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Well, I want to show you
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a story right now, Isak,
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it is pretty powerful
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and I want you to see
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this heartbreaking story
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of many around the world
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but there is a way
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to offer them hope.
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Watch this.
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ISAK: Wow! And this lady,
two children.
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She's lost
her two children.
00:19:53.325 --> 00:19:56.562 align:start line:85% position:45% size:10%
Wow!
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[ Child crying ]
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So we're here at one of
our clinics in South Sudan
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in an area
called Burma.
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We've got women
that have gathered here
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at the clinic.
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We've been talking
to them.
00:20:12.744 --> 00:20:14.680 align:start line:79% position:35% size:30%
I asked them
a question.
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I asked them
to raise their hand
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if they had lost
a child.
00:20:18.750 --> 00:20:20.819 align:start line:74% position:30% size:40%
I asked them
then to indicate
with their hand
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raised on
their fingers
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how many children
they had lost.
00:20:24.890 --> 00:20:26.825 align:start line:79% position:23% size:55%
For some of the ladies
it was one.
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Other ladies,
a number of them showed
two children they'd lost;
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children that they'd lost
just because of food.
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The question was simply
related to food.
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That is why
when we say to you
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that there is a food crisis
happening here,
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a food insecurity crisis
that is happening here
in South Sudan,
00:20:44.343 --> 00:20:46.278 align:center line:85% position:50% size:45%
not just in Burma,
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we've traveled
to multiple villages here.
00:20:48.547 --> 00:20:51.917 align:start line:79% position:20% size:58%
We've spoken
to mother after mother.
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This is a crisis.
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But in great times
of crisis
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comes the opportunity
to do great things.
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I want you to know
today this is one
of those opportunities
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for good people
to do something --
00:21:05.864 --> 00:21:07.799 align:center line:79% position:50% size:40%
and we have
to do something.
00:21:07.866 --> 00:21:09.801 align:start line:79% position:30% size:40%
We have to step
into this crisis
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and we have
to do something great.
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Something above
and beyond.
00:21:14.006 --> 00:21:15.941 align:start line:79% position:28% size:45%
Beyond what we
would normally do.
00:21:16.008 --> 00:21:18.043 align:start line:79% position:23% size:55%
Why? Because that's
what crisis calls for.
00:21:18.110 --> 00:21:21.546 align:start line:79% position:25% size:50%
And this is
a crisis of lives --
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children's lives.
00:21:23.982 --> 00:21:26.451 align:start line:74% position:28% size:45%
So I'm asking you
from the bottom
of my heart today,
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I'm appealing to you
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to join hands
and hearts with us.
00:21:31.690 --> 00:21:33.625 align:start line:79% position:23% size:55%
You don't have to come
to South Sudan.
00:21:33.692 --> 00:21:35.994 align:start line:74% position:23% size:55%
You don't have to be
the feet or the hands
that make this happen.
00:21:36.061 --> 00:21:37.996 align:start line:85% position:23% size:55%
We'll do that for you.
00:21:38.063 --> 00:21:40.265 align:start line:79% position:18% size:65%
But what we need you to do
is we need you to give
00:21:40.332 --> 00:21:42.467 align:center line:79% position:50% size:58%
the very best gift
that you can give today
00:21:42.534 --> 00:21:44.469 align:center line:85% position:50% size:43%
because that gift
00:21:44.536 --> 00:21:47.739 align:center line:79% position:50% size:43%
will literally be
a gift of life.
00:21:49.875 --> 00:21:51.009 align:start line:85% position:10% size:73%
TAMMY: I've had the privilege
00:21:51.076 --> 00:21:52.411 align:start line:85% position:10% size:68%
of traveling to many places
00:21:52.477 --> 00:21:53.645 align:start line:85% position:10% size:45%
with LIFE Outreach
00:21:53.712 --> 00:21:54.846 align:start line:85% position:10% size:38%
over the years.
00:21:54.913 --> 00:21:56.014 align:start line:85% position:10% size:38%
One of the most
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heartbreaking things
00:21:57.215 --> 00:21:58.450 align:start line:85% position:10% size:65%
I've witnessed is the food
00:21:58.517 --> 00:22:01.053 align:start line:85% position:10% size:58%
crisis and many people,
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many children starving
00:22:02.487 --> 00:22:03.822 align:start line:85% position:10% size:23%
to death.
00:22:03.889 --> 00:22:05.090 align:start line:85% position:10% size:58%
It is a terrible thing.
00:22:05.157 --> 00:22:06.658 align:start line:85% position:10% size:65%
The struggle is very real.
00:22:06.725 --> 00:22:09.061 align:start line:85% position:10% size:75%
And as Isak has shown us here,
00:22:09.127 --> 00:22:10.729 align:start line:85% position:10% size:75%
you could see it for yourself.
00:22:10.796 --> 00:22:12.064 align:start line:85% position:10% size:45%
It is overwhelming
00:22:12.130 --> 00:22:13.331 align:start line:85% position:10% size:60%
when you ask the mothers
00:22:13.398 --> 00:22:14.666 align:start line:85% position:10% size:75%
how many children they've lost
00:22:14.733 --> 00:22:15.934 align:start line:85% position:10% size:33%
because of it
00:22:16.001 --> 00:22:18.070 align:start line:85% position:10% size:68%
and hands go up everywhere.
00:22:18.136 --> 00:22:19.805 align:start line:85% position:10% size:58%
And not just one child,
00:22:19.871 --> 00:22:21.039 align:start line:85% position:10% size:35%
many have lost
00:22:21.106 --> 00:22:22.708 align:start line:85% position:10% size:45%
multiple children.
00:22:22.774 --> 00:22:23.975 align:start line:85% position:10% size:53%
To be there with them
00:22:24.042 --> 00:22:25.477 align:start line:85% position:10% size:70%
personally, seeing firsthand
00:22:25.544 --> 00:22:27.879 align:start line:85% position:10% size:70%
suffering and losing so much
00:22:27.946 --> 00:22:29.481 align:start line:85% position:10% size:70%
because of the lack of food,
00:22:29.548 --> 00:22:31.583 align:start line:85% position:10% size:60%
well, it is devastating.
00:22:31.650 --> 00:22:33.018 align:start line:85% position:10% size:35%
You know what?
00:22:33.085 --> 00:22:34.286 align:start line:85% position:10% size:55%
These families are not
00:22:34.352 --> 00:22:35.587 align:start line:85% position:10% size:45%
asking for much --
00:22:35.654 --> 00:22:37.723 align:start line:85% position:10% size:58%
just enough to survive.
00:22:37.789 --> 00:22:39.124 align:start line:85% position:10% size:38%
But without it,
00:22:39.191 --> 00:22:40.425 align:start line:85% position:10% size:43%
without our help,
00:22:40.492 --> 00:22:41.760 align:start line:85% position:10% size:43%
many will perish,
00:22:41.827 --> 00:22:43.195 align:start line:85% position:10% size:65%
especially those precious,
00:22:43.261 --> 00:22:44.429 align:start line:85% position:10% size:63%
precious little children,
00:22:44.496 --> 00:22:46.031 align:start line:85% position:10% size:28%
and babies.
00:22:46.364 --> 00:22:48.100 align:start line:10% position:10% size:68%
Isak often says this crisis
00:22:48.166 --> 00:22:49.434 align:start line:10% position:10% size:60%
is an opportunity for us
00:22:49.501 --> 00:22:50.736 align:start line:10% position:10% size:40%
to do something.
00:22:50.802 --> 00:22:52.804 align:start line:10% position:10% size:48%
And he is so right.
00:22:52.871 --> 00:22:53.905 align:start line:10% position:10% size:43%
We might be their
00:22:53.972 --> 00:22:55.440 align:start line:10% position:10% size:40%
only hope today.
00:22:55.507 --> 00:22:56.908 align:start line:10% position:10% size:60%
So if the Lord is moving
00:22:56.975 --> 00:22:58.744 align:start line:10% position:10% size:60%
your heart today to come
00:22:58.810 --> 00:23:00.412 align:start line:10% position:10% size:65%
alongside us to help bring
00:23:00.479 --> 00:23:02.547 align:start line:10% position:10% size:65%
relief, hope, and the love
00:23:02.614 --> 00:23:05.584 align:start line:10% position:10% size:55%
of Jesus, then please,
00:23:05.650 --> 00:23:06.651 align:start line:10% position:10% size:38%
please consider
00:23:06.718 --> 00:23:08.086 align:start line:10% position:10% size:43%
giving that gift.
00:23:08.153 --> 00:23:09.354 align:start line:10% position:10% size:68%
Many of you have faithfully
00:23:09.421 --> 00:23:10.856 align:start line:10% position:10% size:60%
given to Mission Feeding
00:23:10.922 --> 00:23:12.224 align:start line:10% position:10% size:53%
before, and for that,
00:23:12.290 --> 00:23:13.725 align:start line:10% position:10% size:35%
we are deeply,
00:23:13.792 --> 00:23:15.093 align:start line:10% position:10% size:40%
deeply grateful.
00:23:15.160 --> 00:23:16.762 align:start line:10% position:10% size:53%
Your generosity is --
00:23:16.828 --> 00:23:18.363 align:start line:10% position:10% size:65%
it is making a difference.
00:23:18.430 --> 00:23:19.564 align:start line:10% position:10% size:45%
And I pray you can
00:23:19.631 --> 00:23:20.766 align:start line:10% position:10% size:48%
continue supporting
00:23:20.832 --> 00:23:22.067 align:start line:10% position:10% size:65%
all that God has called us
00:23:22.134 --> 00:23:23.969 align:start line:10% position:10% size:68%
to do as the family of God.
00:23:24.035 --> 00:23:25.504 align:start line:10% position:10% size:68%
We are committed to finding
00:23:25.570 --> 00:23:27.572 align:start line:10% position:10% size:75%
and reaching the next village,
00:23:27.639 --> 00:23:28.774 align:start line:10% position:10% size:40%
the next family,
00:23:28.840 --> 00:23:29.975 align:start line:10% position:10% size:50%
and as many children
00:23:30.041 --> 00:23:31.076 align:start line:10% position:10% size:25%
as we can.
00:23:31.143 --> 00:23:32.511 align:start line:10% position:10% size:53%
And you can be a part
00:23:32.577 --> 00:23:34.112 align:start line:10% position:10% size:65%
of that life-changing work
00:23:34.179 --> 00:23:35.647 align:start line:10% position:10% size:20%
with us.
00:23:35.714 --> 00:23:36.748 align:start line:10% position:10% size:60%
We are currently feeding
00:23:36.815 --> 00:23:39.518 align:start line:10% position:10% size:40%
350,000 children
00:23:39.584 --> 00:23:40.752 align:start line:10% position:10% size:43%
in desperate need
00:23:40.819 --> 00:23:42.454 align:start line:10% position:10% size:45%
throughout Africa.
00:23:42.521 --> 00:23:43.922 align:start line:10% position:10% size:53%
So if you haven't yet
00:23:43.989 --> 00:23:45.157 align:start line:10% position:10% size:58%
had the chance to give,
00:23:45.223 --> 00:23:46.358 align:start line:10% position:10% size:63%
I encourage you right now
00:23:46.424 --> 00:23:47.893 align:start line:10% position:10% size:65%
to take a moment and pray.
00:23:47.959 --> 00:23:49.594 align:start line:10% position:10% size:65%
Just ask the Lord if today
00:23:49.661 --> 00:23:52.731 align:start line:10% position:10% size:75%
is the day to partner with us.
00:23:52.798 --> 00:23:54.266 align:start line:10% position:10% size:60%
Because together, I know
00:23:54.332 --> 00:23:55.734 align:start line:10% position:10% size:60%
we can help change lives
00:23:55.801 --> 00:23:57.202 align:start line:10% position:10% size:35%
and bring hope
00:23:57.269 --> 00:23:58.637 align:start line:10% position:10% size:60%
through Mission Feeding.
00:23:58.703 --> 00:23:59.771 align:start line:10% position:10% size:30%
This is what
00:23:59.838 --> 00:24:01.339 align:start line:10% position:10% size:53%
that would look like.
00:24:01.406 --> 00:24:03.375 align:start line:10% position:10% size:68%
For $30 that will help feed
00:24:03.441 --> 00:24:05.377 align:start line:10% position:10% size:75%
and minister to three children
00:24:05.443 --> 00:24:07.179 align:start line:10% position:10% size:55%
for three full months.
00:24:07.245 --> 00:24:09.047 align:start line:10% position:10% size:55%
$50 will help feed and
00:24:09.114 --> 00:24:11.049 align:start line:10% position:10% size:65%
minister to five children.
00:24:11.116 --> 00:24:13.351 align:start line:10% position:10% size:70%
$100 will help ten children.
00:24:13.418 --> 00:24:14.786 align:start line:10% position:10% size:68%
And for those who are able,
00:24:14.853 --> 00:24:16.321 align:start line:10% position:10% size:53%
$1,000 will help feed
00:24:16.388 --> 00:24:18.123 align:start line:10% position:10% size:70%
and minister to 100 children
00:24:18.190 --> 00:24:21.126 align:start line:10% position:10% size:55%
for three full months.
00:24:21.193 --> 00:24:22.460 align:start line:10% position:10% size:53%
I believe God reveals
00:24:22.527 --> 00:24:23.829 align:start line:10% position:10% size:43%
many things to us
00:24:23.895 --> 00:24:25.330 align:start line:10% position:10% size:50%
for so many reasons.
00:24:25.397 --> 00:24:26.698 align:start line:10% position:10% size:40%
So I pray today,
00:24:26.765 --> 00:24:28.066 align:start line:10% position:10% size:58%
just as he has shown us
00:24:28.133 --> 00:24:29.734 align:start line:10% position:10% size:55%
this need that we will
00:24:29.801 --> 00:24:31.002 align:start line:10% position:10% size:30%
be faithful.
00:24:31.069 --> 00:24:32.270 align:start line:10% position:10% size:43%
Not to ignore it,
00:24:32.337 --> 00:24:33.638 align:start line:10% position:10% size:53%
but to respond to it.
00:24:33.705 --> 00:24:34.940 align:start line:10% position:10% size:63%
So today, with your gift,
00:24:35.006 --> 00:24:36.174 align:start line:10% position:10% size:63%
we would love to send you
00:24:36.241 --> 00:24:37.242 align:start line:10% position:10% size:45%
a copy of Mattie's
00:24:37.309 --> 00:24:38.410 align:start line:10% position:10% size:40%
devotional book,
00:24:38.476 --> 00:24:39.711 align:start line:10% position:10% size:70%
Through the Valley of Grief.
00:24:39.778 --> 00:24:41.479 align:start line:10% position:10% size:75%
If you will simply request it,
00:24:41.546 --> 00:24:42.848 align:start line:10% position:10% size:65%
we will get it out to you.
00:24:42.914 --> 00:24:44.282 align:start line:10% position:10% size:70%
So please, go to your phone,
00:24:44.349 --> 00:24:45.650 align:start line:10% position:10% size:60%
or go online and give --
00:24:45.717 --> 00:24:48.186 align:start line:10% position:10% size:65%
just give something today.
00:24:49.187 --> 00:24:51.590 align:start line:58% position:20% size:60%
Right now across
the continent of Africa,
00:24:51.656 --> 00:24:53.692 align:center line:58% position:50% size:35%
children
are suffering,
00:24:53.758 --> 00:24:56.528 align:center line:58% position:50% size:65%
facing severe malnutrition
and even death.
00:24:56.595 --> 00:24:58.597 align:start line:58% position:30% size:38%
Extreme drought
and famine
00:24:58.663 --> 00:25:01.099 align:center line:58% position:50% size:45%
putting at risk
thousands of lives
00:25:01.166 --> 00:25:03.668 align:center line:58% position:50% size:63%
means we must replenish
food supplies immediately
00:25:03.735 --> 00:25:06.905 align:center line:58% position:50% size:50%
to keep feeding
the 350,000 children
00:25:06.972 --> 00:25:10.275 align:center line:58% position:50% size:65%
and help reach more people
in desperate need.
00:25:10.342 --> 00:25:12.444 align:start line:58% position:18% size:63%
Through LIFE's
Mission Feeding outreach,
00:25:12.510 --> 00:25:14.579 align:center line:58% position:50% size:65%
your gift of love
can be an answer to prayer
00:25:14.646 --> 00:25:18.149 align:center line:58% position:50% size:75%
for a hurting and hungry child
in their time of need.
00:25:18.216 --> 00:25:20.485 align:start line:58% position:45% size:45%
Call now with your
life-saving gift
00:25:20.552 --> 00:25:23.488 align:center line:58% position:75% size:30%
of $30, $50,
or $100
00:25:23.555 --> 00:25:25.557 align:center line:58% position:75% size:30%
to help feed
and care for
00:25:25.624 --> 00:25:27.559 align:center line:58% position:30% size:38%
three, five,
or ten children
00:25:27.626 --> 00:25:29.628 align:center line:58% position:25% size:30%
for three
full months.
00:25:29.694 --> 00:25:31.696 align:start line:10% position:10% size:35%
With your gift
of any amount,
00:25:31.763 --> 00:25:33.999 align:center line:10% position:50% size:63%
we'll send the Daily LIFE
devotional calendar.
00:25:34.065 --> 00:25:37.936 align:start line:10% position:13% size:73%
This perpetual calendar has
365 days' worth of scriptures
00:25:38.003 --> 00:25:39.905 align:center line:10% position:50% size:65%
and inspirational thoughts
to remind you
00:25:39.971 --> 00:25:43.241 align:center line:10% position:50% size:60%
of the rest you can find
in God's loving arms.
00:25:43.308 --> 00:25:45.343 align:start line:10% position:10% size:40%
With your gift
of $100 or more,
00:25:45.410 --> 00:25:47.612 align:center line:10% position:50% size:75%
you may request the
"The Light of Life" desk lamp.
00:25:47.679 --> 00:25:49.714 align:start line:10% position:28% size:43%
Find comfort
and encouragement
00:25:49.781 --> 00:25:52.484 align:center line:10% position:50% size:43%
from Jesus' words
in John 8:12
00:25:52.550 --> 00:25:55.287 align:center line:10% position:50% size:73%
displayed on this
stand-alone acrylic gas lamp,
00:25:55.353 --> 00:25:57.355 align:center line:10% position:50% size:40%
perfect for home
or office décor
00:25:57.422 --> 00:26:00.792 align:center line:10% position:50% size:65%
as a reminder that Jesus
is the light of the world.
00:26:00.859 --> 00:26:03.795 align:start line:58% position:20% size:58%
Finally, with your gift
of $1,000 or more
00:26:03.862 --> 00:26:06.197 align:center line:58% position:50% size:65%
to help feed
and care for 100 children,
00:26:06.264 --> 00:26:08.366 align:center line:58% position:33% size:45%
be sure to request
our inspiring
00:26:08.433 --> 00:26:11.469 align:center line:58% position:33% size:43%
bronze sculpture,
"A Cup of Water."
00:26:11.536 --> 00:26:15.206 align:start line:10% position:15% size:68%
Please call, write, or make
your gift online today.
00:26:19.344 --> 00:26:20.378 align:start line:58% position:10% size:33%
TAMMY: I hope
00:26:20.445 --> 00:26:21.446 align:start line:58% position:10% size:48%
you're going online
00:26:21.513 --> 00:26:22.480 align:start line:58% position:10% size:60%
and giving the best gift
00:26:22.547 --> 00:26:23.548 align:start line:58% position:10% size:55%
you possibly can give.
00:26:23.615 --> 00:26:24.783 align:start line:58% position:10% size:53%
You must know it will
00:26:24.849 --> 00:26:25.850 align:start line:58% position:10% size:68%
make such a huge difference
00:26:25.917 --> 00:26:26.985 align:start line:58% position:10% size:43%
in so many lives.
00:26:27.052 --> 00:26:28.153 align:start line:58% position:10% size:53%
And for whatever gift
00:26:28.219 --> 00:26:29.521 align:start line:58% position:10% size:60%
that you can give today,
00:26:29.587 --> 00:26:30.655 align:start line:58% position:10% size:48%
we want to send you
00:26:30.722 --> 00:26:32.123 align:start line:58% position:10% size:55%
Mattie Jackson Smith's
00:26:32.190 --> 00:26:33.258 align:start line:58% position:10% size:28%
devotional,
00:26:33.325 --> 00:26:34.426 align:start line:58% position:10% size:70%
Through the Valley of Grief.
00:26:34.492 --> 00:26:35.560 align:start line:58% position:10% size:55%
I know you'll want it.
00:26:35.627 --> 00:26:37.228 align:start line:58% position:10% size:70%
You might want many of them,
00:26:37.295 --> 00:26:38.363 align:start line:58% position:10% size:55%
I'm quite sure because
00:26:38.430 --> 00:26:39.364 align:start line:58% position:10% size:63%
we all know somebody that
00:26:39.431 --> 00:26:40.532 align:start line:58% position:10% size:73%
needs to be encouraged today.
00:26:40.598 --> 00:26:41.599 align:start line:58% position:10% size:63%
Mattie, thank you so much
00:26:41.666 --> 00:26:42.667 align:start line:58% position:10% size:38%
for being here.
00:26:42.734 --> 00:26:43.735 align:start line:58% position:10% size:43%
Is there anything
00:26:43.802 --> 00:26:44.803 align:start line:58% position:10% size:58%
you want to say at all,
00:26:44.869 --> 00:26:46.438 align:start line:58% position:10% size:65%
one last little something?
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MATTIE: I would just say,
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your pain is not wasted.
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That was my greatest fear.
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In the hands of God,
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everything is made new
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and every story is redeemable.
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TAMMY: Pain is real
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but so is hope.
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I love you.
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Gosh, and I want to leave you
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with a little something
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from day 147.
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Mattie says, "You may not
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fathom it now, but
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the Lord has dreams
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in mind for your future.
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He has plans to bring you
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back, bring your life back
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into your barren heart.
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Not to replace what
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you've lost but
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to restore the days of joy."
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Psalms 126:5 says,
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"Those who plant in tears
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will harvest with shouts
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of joy!"
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Thank you so much
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for watching.
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We'll see you next time
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right here on Life Today.
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♪
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>> And there were times
that I thought,
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he was going
to take his own life.
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After struggling with PTSD,
this former Marine
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is now helping other heroes
dealing with trauma.
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