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Kerrie Oles suffered
a turbulent family life
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that continued
into adulthood
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until she was
invited to church.
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>> I never felt
peaceful and loved
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since I was probably
11 years old.
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And even
before that,
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it was a warped way
of being loved.
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So I just ran
to the altar.
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I didn't know
what it was about.
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I didn't know
what was going to happen
after I did it,
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but I was like yes,
I want that.
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♪
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RANDY: Welcome to LIFE Today.
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I'm Randy Robison.
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Tammy Trent is with me.
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TAMMY: Hello!
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RANDY: And Tammy, we talk
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to a lot of people here
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who go through
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really awful things.
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I mean, terrible things.
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And yet, you look at them
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and you go, okay,
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there is joy, there is peace,
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there is purpose.
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How did they get it?
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Well, we know how.
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But we want you today
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to experience that.
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It is the word
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of our testimony.
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It is what God does
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in our lives.
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And we have someone
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who really, by all accounts
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could be shipwrecked in life.
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TAMMY: Absolutely!
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I think
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she felt even like that,
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like a mess, kind of lost.
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My identity, who am I?
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You listen to
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a bunch of different people
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your whole life
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telling you who you are.
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You start to believe
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certain things
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and then get to a place
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of like who am I?
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What do I do?
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And how do I untangle
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the place that I'm at
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because I don't want
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to be here anymore?
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RANDY: Yet she is here today
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encouraging you.
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She has a book where
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she tells much of her story.
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The book is called For Real.
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It is written by Kerrie Oles
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and she joins us.
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Kerrie,
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you and I talked online
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a few weeks ago.
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I was like, man,
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people need to hear from her.
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Thank you for coming
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and sharing today.
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TAMMY: I absolutely love her.
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I listened to that interview.
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RANDY: You saw the interview?
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TAMMY: Yes!
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I saw the interview and
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I fell in love with Kerrie.
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KERRIE: Stop! I love y'all.
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Well, I'm taking Tammy
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with me now.
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RANDY: Some people
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haven't heard your story.
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It is rough.
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I think it is good to recount
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as much as you can;
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some of the painful parts
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just so people can see
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where God has brought you.
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So take us back
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wherever you want.
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KERRIE: Well, I think
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my first real memories
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on planet Earth
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were being sexually abused.
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That's like your first
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recollection of memories.
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And even with that,
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I still felt like
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my family was normal.
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We have a version of normal
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that we think is normal
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when in reality,
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if we asked everyone
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it would be different.
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But I had three older brothers
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and everything seemed great
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until I was around 11
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and my brother
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was killed by a drunk driver
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on Christmas.
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I can remember
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standing at the door
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just begging him not to go
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to the movies with his friend.
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But he did.
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And that night
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he was killed on the highway.
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RANDY: That was
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your oldest brother?
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KERRIE: That was
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my oldest brother.
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RANDY: How did that
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hit your family?
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KERRIE: Oh well,
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because we didn't have
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a church community,
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we didn't know the Lord,
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I think we all just
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started dealing with trauma
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in our own ways
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and it just split our family
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in two.
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My middle brother
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became so involved with drugs
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and crime.
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To date, he's been
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in prison nine times.
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He says prison is where
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he feels most comfortable.
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I think it is because
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he wanted to be the one
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that died;
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they were all so close.
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My youngest brother
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joined a cult
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shortly after that.
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He's been absent
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from the family for over --
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he doesn't know me,
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my family, anything.
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What that left
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is just a traumatized girl.
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When everyone around us
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starts to disappear
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and everything we know
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starts to disappear
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so do we.
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So I just became
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a very recluse sort of person.
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My family, we moved
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to the middle of the woods.
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When I say "my family,"
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just my mom and my dad and I.
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I think they were trying
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to outrun their trauma
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as if we could do that.
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Before I knew it,
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after high school,
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I had this void in my life
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so huge from just neglect.
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Listen.
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They did the best they could
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but because we were all absent
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of the one thing we need
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to handle grief,
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which is a personal
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relationship with Jesus,
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they did the best they could.
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But the best they could
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was neglectful of me.
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It kind of left me
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believing a lie that
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I was unworthy to be loved.
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So I went out
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and tried to fill that void.
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And by the age of 26,
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I was married
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and divorced twice
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with very abusive men.
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But by the time I started
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being physically abused,
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I had already been
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sexually and mentally abused.
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I just felt like
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that was the progression
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of my life.
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Like that's the story
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I was worth.
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My life was spinning
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out of control.
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I was involved with drugs
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and bad men.
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When I met my husband
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who I'm married to now,
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he did something
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no other person has ever done.
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I met him by accident
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at a barbecue.
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"Accident," I'm not sure
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but I met him at a barbecue.
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He said,
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"I'd like to take you out
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but you are messed up."
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I was like,
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"That's an understatement."
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He invited me to church and
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I remember thinking, what?
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And that was at a time
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in my life when
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I contemplated suicide
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a lot.
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I had no one to love me
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so what was it worth?
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I think a lot of us
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don't rise to the story
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we think is possible for us.
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We fall to the story
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we think we're worth.
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And that's where I was.
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I didn't think
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I was worth a good story.
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But my boyfriend,
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the guy who was asking me out
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was cute so I wanted to go.
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And so
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I went to church with him.
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And that was
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my first experience
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with like a big church
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and a pastor.
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I walked into that church
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and I remember thinking,
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oh these people!
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They're going to know
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all about my story.
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I don't even know if there is
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a screening process.
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Because if so,
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they're probably not
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going to let me in.
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That day,
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I met the lover of my soul
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and the love of my life.
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We've been married
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for 25 years now.
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RANDY: What was it though
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that was something
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the pastor said,
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something you felt?
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Because you say
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the lover of your soul,
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and I know you meant
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your husband
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but the real lover
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of your soul --
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KERRIE: The real lover
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of my soul was Jesus.
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But the pastor
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started saying things like,
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"Do you want to know peace?
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Do you want to know love?"
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I remember thinking,
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those are two things --
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I just remember peace and love
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very intuitively,
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like very strongly
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at that moment.
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I just remember thinking,
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I've never felt peaceful
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and loved since I was
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probably 11 years old,
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and even before that,
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it was a warped way
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of being loved.
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So I just ran to the altar.
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I didn't know
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what it was about.
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I didn't know
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what was going to happen
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after I did it,
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but I was like yes,
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I want that.
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TAMMY: Absolutely.
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It sounds like that was
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a huge turning point
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in your life.
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KERRIE: It was
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a huge turning point.
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Meeting Jesus
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was the best thing
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that ever happened to me.
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However, trauma still talks
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when you meet Jesus.
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TAMMY: That's right!
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How did you get to a place
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of realizing that
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I have to deal with that
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because it is affecting
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everything in my life?
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KERRIE: Well, it was when
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we were married
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about five years
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and I was malfunctioning.
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I was thinking all of a sudden
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now I'm this good
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Christian woman.
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I had to be just like
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the Proverbs 31 woman
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that they taught me about
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in Bible study.
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I was like
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how do I get to be that?
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[Laughing]
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Like I'm going to go out
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and chop wood or knit.
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I'm not sure.
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But I was trying to do
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all the perfect things
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that I thought
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being a Christian was.
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It just wasn't working.
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It was making me more angry.
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It was making me
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malfunction more.
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RANDY: Did you feel
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like a failure?
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KERRIE: Yes!
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It was making me deflect
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onto my husband when
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he would do something wrong.
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I would think,
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why is he doing that
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when I was doing it too?
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And so you just drag
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all that stuff with you.
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You drag your trauma with you.
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You give it a place to land
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until you want to look at it
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and open that box and go,
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you know, there is some stuff
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I need to look at.
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That's where I was.
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I started going
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to some freedom classes
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and some counseling.
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That's when I realized
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oh, I had real stuff inside
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that I needed to deal with.
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I think in today's world,
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more than ever,
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people are dealing
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with mental health.
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I think we were so obsessed,
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at least the church time
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I'd been in,
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that we needed to be
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these spiritual giants.
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But unless we couple that
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with emotional wellness,
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then all we know is
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a good version of some words.
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We've got to understand
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that emotional
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and mental health matter.
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I think sometimes,
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we think as a Christian,
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we've got to curate
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those emotions
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so that we don't have any.
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RANDY: And a lot of times,
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I know the temptation,
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especially with abuse,
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that's awful.
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But the pain of the loss,
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the fracturing of the family,
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the failed marriages,
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there are a lot of things
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going on there.
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But as a Christian,
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you almost don't want
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to admit failure sometimes.
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But I think the harder thing
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is just confronting that pain
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because it drags up a lot
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that you'd rather forget.
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So how do you go about it
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in a healthy way
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to confront those issues
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that if you don't,
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you're just --
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you're going to keep dragging?
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They're going
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to keep dragging you down.
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KERRIE: Absolutely.
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I think you have to learn
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to turn the trauma into truth.
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So what that means would be,
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I would always think
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to myself,
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this is where your story
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is the ceiling.
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You've got a nice man
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but anything else,
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you're probably not
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going to be worth it.
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So I had to do
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a lot of story work
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and go back to the time
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when I was wounded as a child.
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Like I had to forgive
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the person
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who sexually abused me.
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I had to then,
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I know it sounds crazy
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but I had to forgive
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all my family members
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for leaving me,
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either emotionally
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or physically.
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I had to recognize
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that there were things
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and decisions that I made
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when I was out of control
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so that I could now understand
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how to take those lies
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that made me out of control
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and learn the truth
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about them
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so that I could begin
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to think differently
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about who I am to God,
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who I am
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in this current situation,
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and how I can think about me.
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RANDY: Can I ask about
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the forgiveness part?
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Because that is easier said
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than done,
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especially when
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you're talking abuse.
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But also, when you're
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talking about maybe
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your parents thought
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they did everything right
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or don't realize --
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did you go to these people?
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Or is this a thing
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that you did on your own?
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What does that look like?
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KERRIE: Well, to the man
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who killed my brother
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that night,
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who drank too much,
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and hit my brother's body
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while he was putting gas
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in his car,
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I had to write him a letter.
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I looked him up on Google,
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found him,
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mailed him a letter,
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and said,
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you have no idea who I am
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but this is what
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I need to do.
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I don't expect
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to hear from you
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but I have to do this
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exercise for me.
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Because that forgiveness
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was choking the life
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out of Kerrie.
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Because if my husband
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would do one thing wrong
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it was hard for me
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to forgive him
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because I didn't know how
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to forgive anyone.
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So I wrote him a letter.
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My dad was still alive
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and I just wrote my dad
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a three-page letter,
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front and back,
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and I listed out all my sins.
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All my sins that I thought
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of being a terrible daughter
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that he probably thought.
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And I gave it to him.
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He was actually
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on his hospice bed
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at the time.
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I said, listen, Dad,
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I always thought
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that you were a terrible dad.
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Now I understand,
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you lost three sons.
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I had a part to play
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in malfunctioning as well.
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At some point as an adult,
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I made decisions out of pain
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that I regret
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and you've probably looked at
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and thought, well,
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now I've lost my three sons,
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and my daughter is a wreck.
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So I wanted you to know that
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I'm letting you off the hook.
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You are not a terrible dad.
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We just had
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a terrible thing happen to us
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and none of us knew how to
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rightfully deal with trauma.
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I'll never forget.
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I thought he would read
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the letter,
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and I thought he would say
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I told you about number seven.
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But instead,
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he folded up the letter
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and he took my hand.
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And I knew at 36 years old,
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my dad never held my hand,
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but he took my hand and said,
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"I've always loved you,
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daughter."
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I'll never forget,
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it was the first time I think
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I felt my father's love
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but I knew it came
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from my Father's love.
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TAMMY: I don't even --
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I'm sorry.
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Got to take a moment
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with that.
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That's incredible.
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I love that.
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I love
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that God gave you that gift,
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that moment with your dad.
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I was going to ask you
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what response he gave you.
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I wanted to say
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in his response to you,
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has that helped you
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in responding and healing
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throughout your life?
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KERRIE: That was,
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as you called it a minute ago,
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that was another turning point
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in my life.
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I realized
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that I meet a lot of girls,
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especially in the line of work
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that I do,
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we always point to our dad,
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that he didn't give us
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very much self-worth.
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Now I teach them, let's look
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at the part we played.
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Let's have
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a different perspective of
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yeah, my dad
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did terrible things.
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He did neglect me
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but it was my way
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of viewing it as well.
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Because I knew in that moment
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that he actually did
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always love me.
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He just didn't have the tools
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and didn't know
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how to show it.
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TAMMY: Can I talk about
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the power
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of a full-circle moment?
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Because you alluded to that.
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Talked about the girls
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that you minister to.
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I love how --
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we always say this,
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God wastes nothing.
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But he doesn't, especially
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if we work with him.
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KERRIE: Yes!
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TAMMY: Can you tell us
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a little bit about that,
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a place you never wanted
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to go but God took you back?
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KERRIE: So I grew up
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on Sundays going to prisons,
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different ones
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to visit my brother.
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I hated Sundays.
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That's why I hated church.
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I'd always see
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it was family day
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and I would think, uhh!
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Family day?
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It is family day
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at the prison.
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I'd go get searched
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from the ages of 12 to 17,
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in every prison.
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So I made a vow
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when I became a speaker
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and an author,
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I will speak
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all kinds of places.
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I'll go to all
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the pretty little platforms
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and the women's conferences
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but I will never speak
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in prison.
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And I got a call
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to speak in prison.
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I said, "I'm so sorry
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but I don't speak in prison."
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I'll never forget, the lady
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on the other end of the phone,
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she had the audacity,
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with great conviction
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of the Holy Spirit,
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she said, "Really?
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With your story?
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I would have thought
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that's exactly
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where you would speak."
00:16:37.596 --> 00:16:38.630 align:start line:85% position:10% size:28%
I was like,
00:16:38.697 --> 00:16:39.865 align:start line:85% position:10% size:73%
"Oh! We don't know each other
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that well!"
00:16:41.200 --> 00:16:42.801 align:start line:85% position:10% size:40%
She was so right
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because I went.
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And the day I went
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to my very first prison,
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I drove up in the parking lot
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all alone
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and I thought to myself,
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you have got to be kidding me.
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It was the very first prison
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my brother had ever been in.
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I said Lord,
00:16:58.217 --> 00:16:59.718 align:start line:85% position:10% size:55%
why would you do this?
00:16:59.785 --> 00:17:00.953 align:start line:85% position:10% size:28%
And he said
00:17:01.019 --> 00:17:02.087 align:start line:85% position:10% size:55%
the greatest sentence.
00:17:02.154 --> 00:17:03.255 align:start line:85% position:10% size:48%
He said, "Sometimes
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you've got to go back
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to the place
00:17:05.691 --> 00:17:06.859 align:start line:85% position:10% size:63%
where the pain originated
00:17:06.925 --> 00:17:08.093 align:start line:85% position:10% size:48%
and get that healed
00:17:08.160 --> 00:17:09.361 align:start line:85% position:10% size:70%
to move on to your purpose."
00:17:09.428 --> 00:17:10.596 align:start line:85% position:10% size:58%
TAMMY: Oh, my goodness!
00:17:10.662 --> 00:17:11.897 align:start line:85% position:10% size:33%
RANDY: I know
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you talk about this
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and I know you've helped
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a lot of people.
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Can you do another program
00:17:17.169 --> 00:17:18.404 align:start line:85% position:10% size:35%
where you walk
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through that healing process
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with people?
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KERRIE: Yes! Absolutely!
00:17:22.341 --> 00:17:23.642 align:start line:85% position:10% size:53%
RANDY: You don't want
00:17:23.709 --> 00:17:25.010 align:start line:85% position:10% size:33%
to miss that.
00:17:25.077 --> 00:17:26.044 align:start line:85% position:10% size:33%
I have to ask
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one more question.
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Actually, two quickly.
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Did you ever hear
00:17:29.648 --> 00:17:30.649 align:start line:85% position:10% size:48%
from the gentleman,
00:17:30.716 --> 00:17:31.650 align:start line:85% position:10% size:43%
the drunk driver?
00:17:31.717 --> 00:17:32.818 align:start line:85% position:10% size:53%
KERRIE: No, I didn't.
00:17:32.885 --> 00:17:33.819 align:start line:85% position:10% size:38%
RANDY: And then
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what did you do
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to confront your abuser
00:17:36.021 --> 00:17:37.089 align:start line:85% position:10% size:28%
or did you?
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Or was that just
00:17:38.290 --> 00:17:39.425 align:start line:85% position:10% size:50%
a personal exercise?
00:17:39.491 --> 00:17:40.626 align:start line:85% position:10% size:40%
KERRIE: You know
00:17:40.692 --> 00:17:41.827 align:start line:85% position:10% size:70%
that was a personal exercise
00:17:41.894 --> 00:17:42.961 align:start line:85% position:10% size:25%
within me.
00:17:43.028 --> 00:17:44.062 align:start line:85% position:10% size:43%
He had already --
00:17:44.129 --> 00:17:45.464 align:start line:85% position:10% size:45%
he had passed away
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at an early death
00:17:46.598 --> 00:17:47.800 align:start line:85% position:10% size:70%
and so I had to just do that
00:17:47.866 --> 00:17:49.001 align:start line:85% position:10% size:43%
with a counselor.
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RANDY: I ask that
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because anyone
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who is in that situation
00:17:52.504 --> 00:17:53.939 align:start line:63% position:10% size:25%
is like --
00:17:54.006 --> 00:17:55.307 align:start line:63% position:10% size:38%
those examples,
00:17:55.374 --> 00:17:56.575 align:start line:63% position:10% size:65%
not hearing anything back,
00:17:56.642 --> 00:17:58.911 align:start line:85% position:10% size:75%
having the full circle moment,
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and then just having to do it
00:18:00.345 --> 00:18:01.980 align:start line:85% position:10% size:40%
within yourself,
00:18:02.047 --> 00:18:03.582 align:start line:85% position:10% size:50%
it's all acceptable.
00:18:03.649 --> 00:18:05.017 align:start line:85% position:10% size:48%
Yes? It's all good?
00:18:05.083 --> 00:18:06.452 align:start line:85% position:10% size:70%
KERRIE: It's all acceptable,
00:18:06.518 --> 00:18:07.719 align:start line:85% position:10% size:48%
and it all frees up
00:18:07.786 --> 00:18:08.921 align:start line:85% position:10% size:63%
a bit of the trauma story
00:18:08.987 --> 00:18:10.088 align:start line:85% position:10% size:30%
and turns it
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into a truth story.
00:18:11.356 --> 00:18:12.591 align:start line:85% position:10% size:63%
RANDY: I know some people
00:18:12.658 --> 00:18:13.959 align:start line:85% position:10% size:45%
need to hear that.
00:18:14.026 --> 00:18:15.327 align:start line:85% position:10% size:65%
So whatever you need to do
00:18:15.394 --> 00:18:16.495 align:start line:85% position:10% size:30%
to confront.
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It is all good
00:18:17.996 --> 00:18:19.198 align:start line:85% position:10% size:45%
and it is all good
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in God's hands.
00:18:20.499 --> 00:18:21.733 align:start line:85% position:10% size:28%
If you want
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to talk to somebody
00:18:23.068 --> 00:18:24.203 align:start line:85% position:10% size:50%
about that right now
00:18:24.269 --> 00:18:25.370 align:start line:63% position:10% size:68%
we have a telephone number,
00:18:25.437 --> 00:18:26.505 align:start line:63% position:10% size:68%
we'll put it on the screen,
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there is somebody
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who will pray with you,
00:18:28.907 --> 00:18:30.008 align:start line:63% position:10% size:40%
someone who will
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listen to you,
00:18:31.276 --> 00:18:32.377 align:start line:63% position:10% size:73%
and maybe start that process.
00:18:32.444 --> 00:18:33.512 align:start line:63% position:10% size:53%
So pick up the phone.
00:18:33.579 --> 00:18:34.847 align:start line:63% position:10% size:43%
We care about you
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and your needs.
00:18:36.782 --> 00:18:38.116 align:start line:63% position:10% size:50%
We care about anyone
00:18:38.183 --> 00:18:39.418 align:start line:63% position:10% size:68%
who is dealing with trauma.
00:18:39.485 --> 00:18:40.652 align:start line:63% position:10% size:63%
Tammy, you know there are
00:18:40.719 --> 00:18:41.854 align:start line:63% position:10% size:58%
people around the world
00:18:41.920 --> 00:18:43.322 align:start line:63% position:10% size:73%
dealing with different levels
00:18:43.388 --> 00:18:44.456 align:start line:63% position:10% size:25%
of trauma.
00:18:44.523 --> 00:18:45.724 align:start line:63% position:10% size:68%
And the outreaches of LIFE,
00:18:45.791 --> 00:18:46.959 align:start line:63% position:10% size:25%
we're able
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to do some great things.
00:18:48.460 --> 00:18:49.761 align:start line:63% position:10% size:35%
TAMMY: We have
00:18:49.828 --> 00:18:50.829 align:start line:63% position:10% size:50%
a great opportunity.
00:18:50.896 --> 00:18:52.965 align:start line:63% position:10% size:73%
Take a minute and watch this.
00:18:53.999 --> 00:18:55.934 align:start line:79% position:28% size:45%
Christmas is just
around the corner.
00:18:56.001 --> 00:18:57.936 align:start line:79% position:28% size:45%
And at Life Today,
it is time
00:18:58.003 --> 00:18:59.938 align:center line:79% position:50% size:48%
for Christmas Shoes
and Smiles!
00:19:00.005 --> 00:19:01.940 align:start line:10% position:25% size:48%
Along with
new pairs of shoes,
00:19:02.007 --> 00:19:03.942 align:center line:10% position:50% size:40%
we're giving
Christmas smiles
00:19:04.009 --> 00:19:05.944 align:center line:10% position:50% size:60%
to special children born
with physical challenges
00:19:06.011 --> 00:19:08.146 align:center line:10% position:50% size:43%
through gifts
of transformative
00:19:08.213 --> 00:19:11.250 align:center line:10% position:50% size:33%
life-changing
surgery.
00:19:11.316 --> 00:19:14.553 align:start line:10% position:13% size:73%
And while we celebrate
each gift's laughter and joy,
00:19:14.620 --> 00:19:17.756 align:center line:10% position:50% size:50%
we honor
the silent struggles
that inspire them.
00:19:44.950 --> 00:19:47.920 align:start line:74% position:30% size:40%
"Do you know
your baby's head
is growing?"
00:19:47.986 --> 00:19:51.924 align:start line:79% position:25% size:48%
Something no mother
ever wants to hear.
00:19:51.990 --> 00:19:54.393 align:start line:79% position:18% size:63%
What Falistas would learn
is that her daughter
00:19:54.459 --> 00:19:57.796 align:center line:79% position:50% size:70%
had a neurological condition
called hydrocephalus
00:19:57.863 --> 00:20:00.365 align:center line:79% position:50% size:33%
or water
on the brain.
00:20:00.432 --> 00:20:03.035 align:start line:79% position:20% size:60%
You see, inside
everyone's head is fluid
00:20:03.101 --> 00:20:05.037 align:center line:79% position:50% size:33%
that protects
our brains
00:20:05.103 --> 00:20:07.372 align:center line:79% position:50% size:65%
but the bodies of children
with hydrocephalus
00:20:07.439 --> 00:20:10.242 align:center line:79% position:50% size:63%
cannot reabsorb and drain
this fluid naturally
00:20:10.309 --> 00:20:12.244 align:center line:85% position:50% size:43%
from their heads.
00:20:12.311 --> 00:20:14.313 align:start line:79% position:25% size:48%
Worse yet,
when left untreated
00:20:14.379 --> 00:20:17.316 align:center line:79% position:50% size:70%
the results of hydrocephalus
are often lethal.
00:20:29.695 --> 00:20:31.763 align:start line:79% position:18% size:65%
>> The people at Falistas'
church had told her
00:20:31.830 --> 00:20:34.299 align:center line:79% position:50% size:40%
that she needed
to see a doctor.
00:20:34.366 --> 00:20:36.301 align:start line:58% position:35% size:30%
When she got
to CURE
00:20:36.368 --> 00:20:38.303 align:center line:58% position:50% size:53%
they were able
to diagnose Ana Petwa
00:20:38.370 --> 00:20:40.305 align:center line:85% position:50% size:35%
and treat her.
00:20:40.372 --> 00:20:43.742 align:start line:74% position:28% size:45%
Falistas told me
that without CURE
she would be lost.
00:20:43.809 --> 00:20:46.678 align:start line:74% position:23% size:55%
And I wonder
how many other mothers
around the world
00:20:46.745 --> 00:20:49.281 align:center line:79% position:50% size:40%
are feeling that
right now.
00:20:49.348 --> 00:20:52.584 align:start line:10% position:15% size:70%
CURE International is LIFE's
mission partner in Uganda.
00:20:52.651 --> 00:20:54.586 align:start line:10% position:30% size:40%
It was their
skilled surgeons
00:20:54.653 --> 00:20:57.389 align:center line:10% position:50% size:73%
who corrected
Ana Petwa's deadly condition.
00:20:57.456 --> 00:20:59.391 align:start line:10% position:30% size:38%
Even as
you watch this,
00:20:59.458 --> 00:21:01.393 align:center line:10% position:50% size:53%
a new surgical center
is under construction
00:21:01.460 --> 00:21:03.395 align:center line:10% position:50% size:38%
to expand
CURE's capacity
00:21:03.462 --> 00:21:05.631 align:center line:10% position:50% size:45%
to treat children
in desperate need.
00:21:05.697 --> 00:21:09.701 align:start line:10% position:18% size:65%
Its completion now depends
on the same giving spirit
00:21:09.768 --> 00:21:13.138 align:center line:10% position:50% size:53%
that made Ana Petwa's
healing a reality.
00:21:18.477 --> 00:21:19.578 align:start line:85% position:10% size:45%
RANDY: That's hard
00:21:19.645 --> 00:21:20.679 align:start line:85% position:10% size:43%
to watch at times
00:21:20.746 --> 00:21:22.814 align:start line:85% position:10% size:70%
but wow, what an opportunity
00:21:22.881 --> 00:21:25.717 align:start line:85% position:10% size:60%
to literally save lives.
00:21:25.784 --> 00:21:27.753 align:start line:85% position:10% size:68%
That's not the only miracle
00:21:27.819 --> 00:21:29.287 align:start line:85% position:10% size:65%
that they're going to see.
00:21:29.354 --> 00:21:30.455 align:start line:85% position:10% size:68%
We have a miracle right now
00:21:30.522 --> 00:21:33.058 align:start line:85% position:10% size:70%
because that surgical center
00:21:33.125 --> 00:21:36.461 align:start line:85% position:10% size:48%
costs $1.2 million.
00:21:36.528 --> 00:21:38.163 align:start line:85% position:10% size:33%
But a friend,
00:21:38.230 --> 00:21:39.564 align:start line:85% position:10% size:43%
a partner of LIFE
00:21:39.631 --> 00:21:41.867 align:start line:85% position:10% size:65%
has already given $700,000
00:21:41.933 --> 00:21:42.968 align:start line:85% position:10% size:23%
for that.
00:21:43.035 --> 00:21:44.036 align:start line:85% position:10% size:65%
So it is up to us to cover
00:21:44.102 --> 00:21:45.103 align:start line:85% position:10% size:55%
the other half million
00:21:45.170 --> 00:21:46.171 align:start line:85% position:10% size:35%
and that's why
00:21:46.238 --> 00:21:47.339 align:start line:85% position:10% size:50%
we're coming to you.
00:21:47.406 --> 00:21:48.740 align:start line:85% position:10% size:33%
We're saying,
00:21:49.074 --> 00:21:50.342 align:start line:10% position:10% size:50%
what an opportunity.
00:21:50.409 --> 00:21:51.610 align:start line:10% position:10% size:50%
We're going to bless
00:21:51.677 --> 00:21:52.778 align:start line:10% position:10% size:40%
so many children
00:21:52.844 --> 00:21:55.113 align:start line:10% position:10% size:68%
with these shoes this year.
00:21:55.180 --> 00:21:56.448 align:start line:10% position:10% size:75%
We're going to bless many more
00:21:56.515 --> 00:21:57.549 align:start line:10% position:10% size:40%
with the smiles,
00:21:57.616 --> 00:21:58.650 align:start line:10% position:10% size:68%
the cleft palate surgeries,
00:21:58.717 --> 00:21:59.751 align:start line:10% position:10% size:35%
the cleft lip,
00:21:59.818 --> 00:22:00.852 align:start line:10% position:10% size:43%
and cleft palate.
00:22:00.919 --> 00:22:01.953 align:start line:10% position:10% size:45%
But there are many
00:22:02.020 --> 00:22:04.723 align:start line:10% position:10% size:58%
whose lives will depend
00:22:04.790 --> 00:22:06.058 align:start line:10% position:10% size:25%
on getting
00:22:06.124 --> 00:22:07.359 align:start line:10% position:10% size:50%
that surgical center
00:22:07.426 --> 00:22:08.860 align:start line:10% position:10% size:38%
up and running.
00:22:08.927 --> 00:22:10.228 align:start line:10% position:10% size:28%
The parents
00:22:10.295 --> 00:22:11.496 align:start line:10% position:10% size:53%
can't afford the kind
00:22:11.563 --> 00:22:12.864 align:start line:10% position:10% size:58%
of treatment they need.
00:22:12.931 --> 00:22:14.066 align:start line:10% position:10% size:55%
You know how difficult
00:22:14.132 --> 00:22:15.367 align:start line:10% position:10% size:23%
it can be
00:22:15.434 --> 00:22:16.835 align:start line:10% position:10% size:70%
to get good health coverage,
00:22:16.902 --> 00:22:18.770 align:start line:10% position:10% size:55%
even here in the West.
00:22:18.837 --> 00:22:20.105 align:start line:10% position:10% size:68%
Over there it is impossible
00:22:20.172 --> 00:22:21.907 align:start line:10% position:10% size:53%
in many situations --
00:22:21.973 --> 00:22:24.409 align:start line:10% position:10% size:38%
except for God,
00:22:24.476 --> 00:22:26.344 align:start line:10% position:10% size:48%
and except for you.
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So we want you to partner
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with us this Christmas
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the best you can.
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Maybe you buy yourself
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something a little less
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so you can bless someone else.
00:22:36.655 --> 00:22:38.190 align:start line:10% position:10% size:63%
It will be so meaningful.
00:22:38.256 --> 00:22:40.492 align:start line:10% position:10% size:65%
Though you may not see all
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the fruit of it, God knows,
00:22:43.462 --> 00:22:44.429 align:start line:10% position:10% size:60%
the one who sent his Son
00:22:44.496 --> 00:22:45.430 align:start line:10% position:10% size:35%
this Christmas
00:22:45.497 --> 00:22:46.598 align:start line:10% position:10% size:40%
to be a blessing
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so that we could live.
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It is in his name
00:22:48.767 --> 00:22:49.801 align:start line:10% position:10% size:40%
that we're going
00:22:49.868 --> 00:22:50.902 align:start line:10% position:10% size:40%
to be a blessing
00:22:50.969 --> 00:22:52.003 align:start line:10% position:10% size:60%
so that others can live.
00:22:52.070 --> 00:22:53.105 align:start line:10% position:10% size:28%
We want you
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to be a part of it.
00:22:55.507 --> 00:22:56.541 align:start line:10% position:10% size:33%
Tammy, I know
00:22:56.608 --> 00:22:57.642 align:start line:10% position:10% size:70%
you've been to these places.
00:22:57.709 --> 00:22:58.744 align:start line:10% position:10% size:53%
You've seen the pain,
00:22:58.810 --> 00:22:59.845 align:start line:10% position:10% size:65%
you've seen the heartache,
00:22:59.911 --> 00:23:00.946 align:start line:10% position:10% size:38%
and you've seen
00:23:01.012 --> 00:23:02.047 align:start line:10% position:10% size:38%
the opportunity
00:23:02.114 --> 00:23:03.148 align:start line:10% position:10% size:43%
that's before us.
00:23:03.215 --> 00:23:04.249 align:start line:10% position:10% size:25%
It is such
00:23:04.316 --> 00:23:05.350 align:start line:10% position:10% size:60%
a beautiful opportunity.
00:23:05.417 --> 00:23:06.718 align:start line:10% position:10% size:50%
TAMMY: It really is.
00:23:06.785 --> 00:23:08.587 align:start line:10% position:10% size:40%
And the thing is
00:23:08.653 --> 00:23:09.921 align:start line:10% position:10% size:50%
we're not asking you
00:23:09.988 --> 00:23:11.189 align:start line:10% position:10% size:75%
to carry the load by yourself.
00:23:11.256 --> 00:23:12.557 align:start line:10% position:10% size:60%
If we all come together,
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Randy, and just even do
00:23:13.959 --> 00:23:15.093 align:start line:10% position:10% size:33%
a little bit,
00:23:15.160 --> 00:23:16.294 align:start line:10% position:10% size:63%
if that's all you can do,
00:23:16.361 --> 00:23:17.496 align:start line:10% position:10% size:28%
it's a lot.
00:23:17.562 --> 00:23:18.697 align:start line:10% position:10% size:50%
You have to see that
00:23:18.764 --> 00:23:19.898 align:start line:10% position:10% size:48%
as an enormous gift
00:23:19.965 --> 00:23:21.166 align:start line:10% position:10% size:48%
that you're giving.
00:23:21.233 --> 00:23:22.334 align:start line:10% position:10% size:75%
If 25,000 people came together
00:23:22.400 --> 00:23:23.468 align:start line:10% position:10% size:33%
and gave $25,
00:23:23.535 --> 00:23:24.703 align:start line:10% position:10% size:43%
could you imagine
00:23:24.770 --> 00:23:25.904 align:start line:10% position:10% size:65%
what we could do with that
00:23:25.971 --> 00:23:27.105 align:start line:10% position:10% size:75%
and how we can knock that out?
00:23:27.172 --> 00:23:28.240 align:start line:10% position:10% size:53%
Now some can do more.
00:23:28.306 --> 00:23:30.242 align:start line:10% position:10% size:60%
Praise God for the place
00:23:30.308 --> 00:23:31.276 align:start line:10% position:10% size:38%
that you're in,
00:23:31.343 --> 00:23:32.310 align:start line:10% position:10% size:45%
a season you're in
00:23:32.377 --> 00:23:33.345 align:start line:10% position:10% size:55%
where God is blessing,
00:23:33.411 --> 00:23:34.379 align:start line:10% position:10% size:23%
where now
00:23:34.446 --> 00:23:35.413 align:start line:10% position:10% size:53%
you can bless others.
00:23:35.480 --> 00:23:36.448 align:start line:10% position:10% size:40%
I'm telling you,
00:23:36.515 --> 00:23:37.482 align:start line:10% position:10% size:65%
it will make a difference.
00:23:37.549 --> 00:23:38.517 align:start line:10% position:10% size:55%
Please hear our hearts
00:23:38.583 --> 00:23:39.551 align:start line:10% position:10% size:40%
on this and know
00:23:39.618 --> 00:23:40.719 align:start line:10% position:10% size:65%
that this is life-changing
00:23:40.786 --> 00:23:43.054 align:start line:10% position:10% size:40%
and life-giving.
00:23:43.121 --> 00:23:44.189 align:start line:10% position:10% size:35%
We have access
00:23:44.256 --> 00:23:45.257 align:start line:10% position:10% size:68%
to this here where we live,
00:23:45.323 --> 00:23:46.324 align:start line:10% position:10% size:53%
but they don't there.
00:23:46.391 --> 00:23:47.392 align:start line:10% position:10% size:68%
We could change it for them
00:23:47.459 --> 00:23:48.460 align:start line:10% position:10% size:15%
today.
00:23:48.527 --> 00:23:49.528 align:start line:10% position:10% size:58%
So I'm going to ask you
00:23:49.594 --> 00:23:50.529 align:start line:10% position:10% size:58%
to prayerfully consider
00:23:50.595 --> 00:23:51.563 align:start line:10% position:10% size:23%
right now
00:23:51.630 --> 00:23:52.597 align:start line:10% position:10% size:65%
if God is speaking to you,
00:23:52.664 --> 00:23:53.632 align:start line:10% position:10% size:40%
do not hesitate.
00:23:53.698 --> 00:23:54.666 align:start line:10% position:10% size:45%
Respond right now.
00:23:54.733 --> 00:23:55.767 align:start line:10% position:10% size:63%
Let's knock this out now.
00:23:55.834 --> 00:23:58.003 align:start line:10% position:10% size:75%
Let's keep pouring the mortar.
00:23:58.069 --> 00:23:59.137 align:start line:10% position:10% size:58%
Let's put up the walls.
00:23:59.204 --> 00:24:00.205 align:start line:10% position:10% size:20%
Let's do
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whatever we have to do
00:24:01.273 --> 00:24:03.608 align:start line:10% position:10% size:68%
to save another life today.
00:24:03.675 --> 00:24:04.743 align:start line:10% position:10% size:50%
RANDY: That's right.
00:24:04.810 --> 00:24:05.777 align:start line:10% position:10% size:65%
No matter what you can do,
00:24:05.844 --> 00:24:06.812 align:start line:10% position:10% size:65%
it will make a difference.
00:24:06.878 --> 00:24:07.913 align:start line:10% position:10% size:38%
Let me give you
00:24:07.979 --> 00:24:08.914 align:start line:10% position:10% size:40%
a quick rundown.
00:24:08.980 --> 00:24:11.082 align:start line:10% position:10% size:55%
$36 will provide shoes
00:24:11.149 --> 00:24:12.284 align:start line:10% position:10% size:43%
for ten children.
00:24:12.350 --> 00:24:14.786 align:start line:10% position:10% size:58%
$180 will provide shoes
00:24:14.853 --> 00:24:16.521 align:start line:10% position:10% size:40%
for 50 children.
00:24:16.588 --> 00:24:17.823 align:start line:10% position:10% size:50%
Now the average cost
00:24:17.889 --> 00:24:18.857 align:start line:10% position:10% size:48%
of the cleft palate
00:24:18.924 --> 00:24:20.192 align:start line:10% position:10% size:53%
and cleft lip surgery
00:24:20.258 --> 00:24:21.760 align:start line:10% position:10% size:35%
is about $500.
00:24:21.827 --> 00:24:23.328 align:start line:10% position:10% size:38%
So a gift today
00:24:23.395 --> 00:24:25.463 align:start line:10% position:10% size:75%
would go towards one of those.
00:24:25.530 --> 00:24:26.531 align:start line:10% position:10% size:50%
And we're asking for
00:24:26.598 --> 00:24:28.366 align:start line:10% position:10% size:63%
a gift of $1,000 or more.
00:24:28.433 --> 00:24:29.434 align:start line:10% position:10% size:28%
Some of you
00:24:29.501 --> 00:24:30.468 align:start line:10% position:10% size:65%
can give two, three, four,
00:24:30.535 --> 00:24:31.536 align:start line:10% position:10% size:35%
whatever God's
00:24:31.603 --> 00:24:32.571 align:start line:10% position:10% size:45%
enabled you to do.
00:24:32.637 --> 00:24:33.638 align:start line:10% position:10% size:58%
We just ask you to stop
00:24:33.705 --> 00:24:34.773 align:start line:10% position:10% size:35%
and say, Lord,
00:24:34.840 --> 00:24:36.308 align:start line:10% position:10% size:65%
what would you have me do?
00:24:36.374 --> 00:24:37.542 align:start line:10% position:10% size:50%
And then just do it.
00:24:37.609 --> 00:24:38.610 align:start line:10% position:10% size:43%
It is not for us,
00:24:38.677 --> 00:24:40.478 align:start line:10% position:10% size:58%
it's for those children
00:24:40.545 --> 00:24:41.880 align:start line:10% position:10% size:50%
who desperately need
00:24:41.947 --> 00:24:44.216 align:start line:10% position:10% size:40%
that human touch
00:24:44.282 --> 00:24:45.350 align:start line:10% position:10% size:38%
that we believe
00:24:45.417 --> 00:24:46.484 align:start line:10% position:10% size:50%
is a touch from God.
00:24:46.551 --> 00:24:47.719 align:start line:10% position:10% size:25%
That cure,
00:24:47.786 --> 00:24:48.820 align:start line:10% position:10% size:63%
the name of our partners,
00:24:48.887 --> 00:24:49.888 align:start line:10% position:10% size:23%
for those
00:24:49.955 --> 00:24:51.223 align:start line:10% position:10% size:53%
who will possibly die
00:24:51.289 --> 00:24:52.557 align:start line:10% position:10% size:43%
without our help.
00:24:52.624 --> 00:24:53.892 align:start line:10% position:10% size:33%
So go online,
00:24:53.959 --> 00:24:55.227 align:start line:10% position:10% size:63%
go to the phone, and make
00:24:55.293 --> 00:24:57.295 align:start line:10% position:10% size:55%
the best gift you can.
00:24:58.296 --> 00:25:01.199 align:start line:10% position:23% size:55%
For almost two decades
LIFE's Christmas Shoes
and Smiles
00:25:01.266 --> 00:25:03.568 align:center line:58% position:50% size:40%
has continued
to provide shoes
00:25:03.635 --> 00:25:05.871 align:center line:58% position:50% size:63%
for impoverished children
throughout the world,
00:25:05.937 --> 00:25:07.873 align:center line:10% position:50% size:50%
as well as
corrective surgeries
00:25:07.939 --> 00:25:10.041 align:center line:10% position:50% size:58%
for children with
cleft palate disorders.
00:25:10.108 --> 00:25:12.644 align:start line:10% position:13% size:75%
By responding today,
you can help provide new shoes
00:25:12.711 --> 00:25:16.214 align:center line:10% position:50% size:63%
for 150,000 children
in time for the holidays,
00:25:16.281 --> 00:25:19.117 align:center line:10% position:50% size:55%
and for some children
a beautiful new smile.
00:25:19.184 --> 00:25:21.119 align:start line:10% position:30% size:40%
Your gift of $36
00:25:21.186 --> 00:25:23.288 align:center line:10% position:50% size:58%
will help provide shoes
for 10 children.
00:25:23.355 --> 00:25:26.124 align:start line:10% position:23% size:53%
$72 will help provide
shoes for 20.
00:25:26.191 --> 00:25:29.027 align:start line:10% position:23% size:55%
$180 will help provide
shoes for 50.
00:25:29.094 --> 00:25:31.029 align:start line:10% position:28% size:45%
And a gift of $500
00:25:31.096 --> 00:25:33.999 align:center line:10% position:50% size:68%
will help provide
a corrective smile surgery.
00:25:34.065 --> 00:25:36.134 align:start line:10% position:18% size:63%
This year we have
an incredible opportunity
00:25:36.201 --> 00:25:38.470 align:center line:10% position:50% size:53%
to help construct
a new surgical center
00:25:38.536 --> 00:25:40.538 align:center line:10% position:50% size:50%
that will provide
lifesaving surgeries
00:25:40.605 --> 00:25:43.608 align:center line:10% position:50% size:73%
to children suffering serious
neurological conditions.
00:25:43.675 --> 00:25:45.877 align:start line:10% position:18% size:63%
This $1.2 million project
00:25:45.944 --> 00:25:48.146 align:center line:10% position:50% size:50%
is up and above
LIFE's normal budget
00:25:48.213 --> 00:25:50.949 align:center line:10% position:50% size:73%
but because of
one generous friend for LIFE,
00:25:51.016 --> 00:25:53.652 align:center line:10% position:50% size:33%
only $500,000
is needed.
00:25:53.718 --> 00:25:55.754 align:start line:10% position:20% size:60%
As a thank you
for your gift of support
00:25:55.820 --> 00:25:57.756 align:center line:10% position:50% size:48%
to this life-saving
outreach,
00:25:57.822 --> 00:26:00.292 align:center line:10% position:50% size:68%
be sure to request the blue
crystal shoe ornament,
00:26:00.358 --> 00:26:03.028 align:center line:10% position:50% size:53%
a treasure to display
each Christmas.
00:26:03.094 --> 00:26:05.130 align:start line:10% position:30% size:40%
With your gift
of $100 or more,
00:26:05.196 --> 00:26:07.799 align:center line:10% position:50% size:58%
you may request
this keepsake boxed set
00:26:07.866 --> 00:26:10.302 align:center line:10% position:50% size:58%
featuring four
crystal shoe ornaments.
00:26:10.368 --> 00:26:12.304 align:start line:58% position:10% size:55%
Finally, please
consider an extra gift
00:26:12.370 --> 00:26:14.306 align:center line:63% position:33% size:43%
of $1,000 or more
00:26:14.372 --> 00:26:16.741 align:start line:58% position:10% size:68%
to help construct
LIFE's new surgical center.
00:26:16.808 --> 00:26:19.711 align:start line:58% position:13% size:75%
And with this gift,
you may request this beautiful
00:26:19.778 --> 00:26:22.747 align:start line:58% position:10% size:43%
bronze sculpture,
"A Cup of Water."
00:26:22.814 --> 00:26:26.685 align:start line:10% position:15% size:68%
Please call, write, or make
your gift online today!
00:26:28.720 --> 00:26:29.854 align:start line:10% position:10% size:33%
RANDY: I hope
00:26:29.921 --> 00:26:31.022 align:start line:10% position:10% size:45%
you will go online
00:26:31.089 --> 00:26:32.157 align:start line:10% position:10% size:48%
or go to the phone.
00:26:32.223 --> 00:26:33.191 align:start line:10% position:10% size:68%
Make the best gift you can.
00:26:33.258 --> 00:26:34.225 align:start line:10% position:10% size:48%
We're going to make
00:26:34.292 --> 00:26:35.260 align:start line:10% position:10% size:63%
this Christmas so special
00:26:35.327 --> 00:26:36.361 align:start line:10% position:10% size:35%
with your help
00:26:36.428 --> 00:26:37.462 align:start line:10% position:10% size:53%
for so many children.
00:26:37.529 --> 00:26:38.496 align:start line:10% position:10% size:25%
Obviously,
00:26:38.563 --> 00:26:39.631 align:start line:10% position:10% size:50%
the ones who receive
00:26:39.698 --> 00:26:40.832 align:start line:10% position:10% size:48%
that life-altering,
00:26:40.899 --> 00:26:42.000 align:start line:10% position:10% size:68%
perhaps lifesaving surgery.
00:26:42.067 --> 00:26:44.269 align:start line:10% position:10% size:65%
You're going to bless them
00:26:44.336 --> 00:26:45.637 align:start line:10% position:10% size:48%
in such a huge way!
00:26:45.704 --> 00:26:47.138 align:start line:10% position:10% size:70%
So we're excited about that.
00:26:47.205 --> 00:26:48.273 align:start line:10% position:10% size:43%
And we're excited
00:26:48.340 --> 00:26:49.374 align:start line:10% position:10% size:60%
about Kerrie coming back
00:26:49.441 --> 00:26:50.508 align:start line:10% position:10% size:50%
for another program.
00:26:50.575 --> 00:26:51.710 align:start line:10% position:10% size:63%
TAMMY: Yes! It's so good.
00:26:51.776 --> 00:26:52.744 align:start line:10% position:10% size:60%
You have so much to say.
00:26:52.811 --> 00:26:53.778 align:start line:10% position:10% size:15%
I hope
00:26:53.845 --> 00:26:54.913 align:start line:10% position:10% size:63%
we go a little bit deeper
00:26:54.980 --> 00:26:56.014 align:start line:10% position:10% size:63%
into the topic of healing
00:26:56.081 --> 00:26:57.082 align:start line:10% position:10% size:38%
because I think
00:26:57.148 --> 00:26:58.183 align:start line:10% position:10% size:60%
a lot of people need it.
00:26:58.249 --> 00:26:59.217 align:start line:10% position:10% size:18%
Kerrie,
00:26:59.284 --> 00:27:00.218 align:start line:10% position:10% size:65%
where can people find you?
00:27:00.285 --> 00:27:01.252 align:start line:10% position:10% size:40%
Find your books,
00:27:01.319 --> 00:27:02.253 align:start line:10% position:10% size:60%
find all your resources?
00:27:02.320 --> 00:27:03.355 align:start line:10% position:10% size:30%
Book you for
00:27:03.421 --> 00:27:04.456 align:start line:10% position:10% size:68%
the next prison conference.
00:27:04.522 --> 00:27:06.958 align:start line:10% position:10% size:73%
KERRIE: No! I'm just teasing.
00:27:07.025 --> 00:27:08.360 align:start line:10% position:10% size:40%
They can book me
00:27:08.426 --> 00:27:09.828 align:start line:10% position:10% size:65%
or look up any of my books
00:27:09.894 --> 00:27:10.962 align:start line:10% position:10% size:58%
or products or anything
00:27:11.029 --> 00:27:12.163 align:start line:10% position:10% size:65%
at UnlockedMinistries.com.
00:27:12.230 --> 00:27:13.832 align:start line:10% position:10% size:75%
RANDY: UnlockedMinistries.com.
00:27:13.898 --> 00:27:15.934 align:start line:10% position:10% size:50%
Now you can go there
00:27:16.001 --> 00:27:17.135 align:start line:10% position:10% size:28%
and I would
00:27:17.202 --> 00:27:18.236 align:start line:10% position:10% size:70%
but you've got to come back.
00:27:18.303 --> 00:27:19.371 align:start line:10% position:10% size:70%
We're going to help walk you
00:27:19.437 --> 00:27:20.472 align:start line:10% position:10% size:35%
through trauma
00:27:20.538 --> 00:27:21.573 align:start line:10% position:10% size:48%
in the next program
00:27:21.639 --> 00:27:22.707 align:start line:10% position:10% size:30%
with Kerrie.
00:27:22.774 --> 00:27:23.875 align:start line:10% position:10% size:65%
Appreciate you being here.
00:27:23.942 --> 00:27:26.177 align:start line:10% position:10% size:75%
We'll see you again next time!
00:27:33.418 --> 00:27:40.625 align:end line:10% position:90% size:03%
♪
00:27:47.866 --> 00:27:55.073 align:end line:10% position:90% size:03%
♪
00:28:02.313 --> 00:28:05.216 align:start line:63% position:13% size:75%
>> My pain in the present
is very connected to something
00:28:05.283 --> 00:28:07.619 align:center line:63% position:50% size:55%
that was left unhealed
in the past.
00:28:07.685 --> 00:28:09.954 align:start line:63% position:23% size:53%
Kerrie Oles helps you
unlock healing
00:28:10.021 --> 00:28:12.557 align:center line:69% position:50% size:50%
from your past pain.
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LIFE Today is made
possible by the supporters of
LIFE Outreach International.
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Your gift will be used
exclusively for the exempt
purposes of LIFE.
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The ministry features
specific outreaches
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as examples of the programs
it supports and conducts.
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Gifts are considered
to be without restriction
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as to use unless explicitly
stipulated by the donor.
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The ministry is a member
of the ECFA.